If, upon returning to the mainland from the island, you don’t go and knock on their door you’ll always be here, as if on the island, adrift between island and mainland shore, always outside their closed door. If you don’t go where they are and knock they’ll go on with their lives. Should some sight or sound remind them of you it will be you don’t care, you never loved them. You tell yourself approaching that shore I love, loved and will love them. They are better left alone, going on as they have been since the morning I set out from the mainland. I had to. That much was clear. If, upon returning to the mainland, you don’t knock on their door they’ll go on, no thoughts of you, except sight or sound remind them. Their faces clear in memory. The ones you love. Peter Mladinic’s poems have appeared in numerous online journals. He has published three books of poems Lost in Lea, Dressed for Winter, and Falling Awake in Lovington, all with the Lea County Museum Press. His forthcoming Knives on a Table will be out soon from Better Than Starbucks Publications. He lives with six dogs in Hobbs, New Mexico. “If” began over ten years ago as a much longer poem, with more in the way of imagery to evoke an individual who, over time, went out of the poem. Part of that poem involved the topic of letting people drive while intoxicated. About two years ago, I worked on it some more and got something like the final draft, but longer. I couldn’t bring it into focus as a whole. I stepped away, and then recently wrote what you see, fairly quickly, though I’d been very familiar with previous drafts.
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